Last Week

Well last week was hard. Chocolate is proving to be a great difficulty for me. I am not sure what to do about it. I do appreciate every ones suggestions and I will post some of them later as they are great ideas. I wanted to lose more this week but I know why I didn't. I really don't eat much in one sitting but the chocolate in-between meals is killing my calorie intake. I did go for 2 walks last week pushing the baby in the stroller. We also did a ton of yard work and worked with our small livestock. I didn't count that as exercise minutes but I did work hard. I am not sure if I want to continue writing out my food. For some reason lately when I journal my food I eat it makes me uneasy. Almost sets off a mental alarm that I am going with-out. It seems right now if I just mentally keep a calorie count in my head I seem to do better. The diet mindset I found can really harm me as a dieter. It can really set off a binge attack. I don't know why this is, if its just lack of control on my part or its something genetically hard wired into my system. What ever the case it will be interesting to see how I do this week without journaling. Most mornings I am having cereal for breakfast. For lunch I have a grilled cheese and a piece of fruit. Dinner has been what ever meat I serve the family and skipping the starch, extra veggies and a treat after.

I am discouraged about my pooch. After having 4 very LARGE babies (9.4, 8.4, 8.6 and 9.8) this pooch doesn't show ANY signs of shrinking. If my health is good and my heart is doing alright I think after my weight loss I am going to look into a mini-tummy tuck. I know its vain but its something that really bothers me.

Well I am off to take care of the kids and house.

Weigh in..Day 1 of Biggest Loser Contest

With the first weigh-in done I feel a little scared. I mean how many times have a tried to do this already? Good news is I have done this before so I know I can do it. I keep mentally going through the things that I know may trigger me. My weakness is chocolate and I know I have a problem with it. Honestly I know the reason that I am fat is because my Chocolate consumption. For the averge person in the US they consume an averge of 12 pounds of Chocolate per year. I know I ate WAYYYY more than that. I can't count the 1 pound bags of peanut butter M&M's I have tossed down. Then if you take into account all of the Lindt Truffles I have consumed then it starts getting really scary. So I know I have a problem with Chocolate. I can't just not eat chocolate, I am not ready for that. So its moderation time, like they always say. I bought some Hershey's 100 calorie chocolate sticks. They look good, but we'll see. I also got some Lindt Dark Chocolate truffles. I am a milk chocolate girl, but maybe just having one dark chocolate truffle will help fill the void.

So what did the scale say? If you didn't watch my weigh in, it said 204.5. Ok that sucks, it really does. In my defense I had clothes on. Maybe naked I would of weighed less. The first couple of weeks of dieting suck. I mean its like detoxing. You body wants those foods you have been feeding it. I am not sure how today will go. We will see.....